So I was making my way through my past articles to see what I wanted to highlight for The Halibut’s one year anniversary, but it didn’t go exactly as planned. There’s a constant and annoying habit I have that I keep forgetting about.
I generally hate my past work.
After I write something, there’s a great honeymoon period when I’m quite pleased with my efforts which lasts one to two weeks, then the novelty starts to wear off. By the time it’s gone, all I can do is read my own work with disdain and horror. All I do is sit there and tear the post apart, sentence by sentence, wishing I could go back in time and do it again now that I’m aware of what did wrong the first time.
More than that, I fail to understand the response from my readers, especially if it’s positive-
I still can’t believe Brian Jay Jones read my review of Jim Henson: The Biography and called it a ‘lovely, lovely piece’ on Twitter.
I still can’t believe Steve Whitmire– Steven Lawrence ‘One of My Biggest Idols’ Freaking Whitmire, read my one-and-only poetry post and complimented it. I mean, yeah, the poem was about him, so of course he was going to want to know what was being written, but I still consider it the best compliment I’ll ever receive. In addition to that, he apparently read the other articles I have written in support of him- there’s more of them to come in the future, believe me!
Muppet Performer Mike Quinn has also been wonderful in adding his two cents towards certain articles as well, which has and always will be worth more to me than I could possibly say. That fact that someone who is that busy and has so many friends, family and fans to interact with would take the time out to do that is brilliant. Definitely one of the greatest friends I could have asked for.
I’ve even had people say they were honoured to talk to me because I’m apparently such a great writer. This isn’t me bragging by any means and if you don’t believe me, I have the screenshots to prove it (certain things are truly worth treasuring). It just frustrates me that I can’t see my work through their eyes.
Crap….where was I going with this post again?
I think…I think what I’m trying to do here is ask for help from you guys, the readers of my posts and people who are very much like me. Allow me to ask you, what is your approach to observing your own work in hindsight? Do you immediately try to see the positives? Are you critical of it? Do you let bygones be bygones?
Maybe with different perspectives, I can gain a better understanding of how to observe with much less of a negative eye. Please comment below and share your approach, it would be much appreciated.